OK, so some of you are wondering what is going on in Oklahoma but are perhaps afraid to ask. I guess now that that some concrete decisions have been made it's best to tell you "what's up." After months of discussion and contemplation, Tammy and I have come to the determination that some things just don't work the way we had always hoped and we've decided it's time to part and move on with our lives separately. Without detailing out all the reasons for this decision, we, for the most part have agreed that we're "better off friends than lovers" and we hope to preserve at least that friendship, especially since we have children together that we'll have to make decisions for. Weird as it may seem, Tammy and I always functioned better as friends but have never figured out how to be partners in the romantic husband/wife relationship. It was not an easy decision nor one that was taken lightly but one that we know is best for the futures of each of us. Enough said on that.
Last Saturday, some of Tammy's family showed up with a large trailer, loaded it up with all her things and moved her and Savannah back to Idaho.
My heart hurt and tears flowed as I watched them drive away, walking back in the house it seemed so empty, pictures we're missing from their places, the carpet held fresh imprints of furniture that once covered them up. But among the pain and sadness of that moment was a feeling of relief, that the very painful decision was in fact the best. Most of all I am so sad that Savannah will grow daily and I will miss so much of it.
There it is in nutshell, my life right now. So many pieces being picked up and being put back in place. Some days are good and others are very lonely. Don't know if this was the best way to keep everyone informed but it felt like the thing to do. Attached are some of the pictures I have from my last few minutes with Savannah--oh how I miss her.